That may actually be a healthy sign.
Trust is earned.
The real question is not, “Why don’t I trust myself?”
The real question is:
Am I living in a way that makes me trustworthy to myself?
If you are not sleeping enough, neglecting your body, eating in ways that create conflict, tolerating toxic relationships, breaking promises to yourself, ignoring what you know is true, or constantly acting against your own well-being...
then of course you may not trust yourself.
Something in you is being honest.
At certain stages of development, we may need to place our trust in something outside our current pattern: a teacher, a mentor, a guide, a principle, a practice, a path, a belief system, or something that points toward where we are trying to go.
Not so we can surrender our sovereignty.
But so we can borrow stability while we rebuild our relationship with ourselves.
As you learn to relate differently to your body, your mind, your choices, and your life, your actions begin to become worthy of trust.
And when that happens, self-trust is no longer something you have to force.
It becomes natural.